The One Who Does

When (If ever) will we have definitive answers concerning Calvin and Knox?image4

I don’t know.

When (If ever) will Calvin or Knox have another convulsive seizure that causes them to lose control and scream out in fear when it finally stops?

I don’t know.

When (If ever) will we know what the future looks like for our family?  How long will the boys require a special diet? Is the diet really helping? In Calvin’s history of seizures he has gone almost a year between his first seizure and his second, so is the diet really helping or are we just waiting for another one to come? Will Calvin and Knox ever have normal brain scans? (As of their last EEG they both exhibit the same abnormal electrical brain waves.) Will we ever be able to narrow down the common gene factor that  attributes to their seizures and abnormal brain activity? Will Shiloh (our little girl coming in September) have the same gene variation?  With all the uncertainty concerning Calvin and Knox, why did God choose now to bless us with another child?

I. Don’t. Know.

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I know the One Who Does Know.

I know the One who created the universe with just a Word (Genesis 1). I know the One who created Calvin and Knox and Shiloh and Elijah (Psalm 139).  I know the One who has All Wisdom and All Power and All Knowledge (Psalm 104). And He loves me (1 John 4:7-12, John 3:16, Romans 8:28-29). He cares for me (1 Peter 5:7).  He will never leave me or forsake me (Deuteronomy 3:16).  I cannot be plucked from His hand (John 10:28-29).  He loves my children- even more than I can (Matthew 19:14, Psalm 139).  He is God and I am not. He is perfect and He loves perfectly. His plans cannot be thwarted. He is in control.  Christ is seated at the right hand of the majesty on High and in His perfect time He is coming back and He will defeat the Father of Lies and at the name of Him, Jesus, every knee will bow and every tongue will confess that He is Lord and He Will Reign.  There will be no more tears.  No more sorrow. No more pain.

But for now…

For now, for a little while, we are grieved by various trials (1 Peter 1)

though now for a little while, if necessary, you have been grieved by various trials, so that the tested genuineness of your faith- more precious than gold that perishes though it is tested by fire- may be found to result in praise and glory and honor at the revelation of Jesus Christ. 1 Peter 1:6-7

May my faith be tested and may He be glorified.  And when I fail to trust Him, may I be refined. I truly rejoice in knowing that these trials are proving my faith to be real, that I am His,  and that—because He holds me—I cannot be snatched from His hand. I rejoice that—because He loves me—I can love Him (1 John 4:9). I pray that His strength may be perfected in my weakness (2 Corinthians 2:9-12) and that this life I live may point to Him.

So when I don’t know what the immediate future holds or what the details of our life will be, I can rest in the One who does (Proverbs 3:5-6).

image1UPDATE: We were blessed to visit with the boys’ pediatric neurologist on the 15th. We didn’t get many more answers, but are making slow progress in (Lord willing) finding an accurate diagnosis. Doctors remain pleased with the boys’ nutritional levels and the now more than 6 months of seizure-free living. Please continue to pray for clarity and that the nutritional plan would continue to prove an effective treatment. Thank you for all of your support!

 

Thank you for praying for our family! If you’d like to help with caring for the boys and supporting their treatment, you can give on PayPal or Chase QuickPay, using the email: ewayne.taralynn@gmail.com

God’s Goodness in the Setbacks

This past week was a tough one. We got some test results back on the boys, and we’re not sure how to react.

In a sense, the news was terrible, because it appears the boys do have a genetic defect. If the defect is causing the seizures, then it’s not likely something they will grow out of. Getting this news felt like quite a setback, since doctors (at least at our latest appointment) were suspecting something else, something much easier to handle.

In a sense, the news was no news at all, because it wasn’t conclusive, and won’t be without more testing—possibly a lot more testing. We still don’t know for sure there’s a defect (just indicators), and can’t confirm yet that the defect is the cause of the seizures. In many ways, this unknown is hardest for us to deal with, but we remind ourselves that—though we don’t know—our Lord knows everything!

In a sense, the news was good, because the potential defect causes a problem in how the boys break down foods to make the particular proteins needed for neurotransmitters. Translation: it looks the choice to treat with nutrition (a step of faith at the time) was the right decision. We praise the Lord for guiding us to the research that led us to make that decision, and for how helpful the diet has been to this point (Seizure free since November, and medicine free since February!!!).

So, what do we do now?

We pray, and beyond that, we’re not completely sure. We’re meeting with doctors in mid-July to determine the need/benefits of further genetic testing. We’re praying for wisdom as we think through that decision (especially since insurance has not agreed to pay for genetic testing to this point). We’re also praying for wisdom as we transition from thinking the diet was a temporary (2-year) plan for treatment, to thinking it might be a life-long need for our boys. That might seem like a minor transition, until you see our grocery bill! We’re also praying through what this means for future ministry opportunities. A treatment plan of a few years leads to a different line of thinking than the possibility of treating for a life-long condition. We’re also praising the Lord, because he has been gracious to show us his abundant goodness and mercy, even in the setbacks.

How can you help?

Please keep us in prayer. We have been overwhelmed with the blessing of knowing so many are praying for us and our boys. Please continue to do so. Pray that we would love them well, continually proclaim God’s truth to them, and faithfully model what we teach. Please also pray for wisdom, grace, and strength, as we face this trial. Pray that the Lord would continue to give us boldness in sharing gospel truth with the doctors, nurses, lab technicians, insurance agents, and others that we interact with because of the boys. Most of all, pray that the Lord would be glorified in all of this.

 

Thank you for praying for our family! If you’d like to help with caring for the boys and supporting their treatment, you can give on PayPal or Chase QuickPay, using the email: ewayne.taralynn@gmail.com

Genetic Testing Has Begun!

In a HUGE answer to prayer- The phlebotomist (or as Calvin likes to say: hippopotamus) came to our house Thursday and drew blood for both Calvin and Knox to test for a genetic mutation. The doctors are looking for a mutation on the SCN1A gene (but will be checking multiple genes where genetic mutations could occur). Even within the SCN1A gene mutation there are varying degrees of epilepsy. Our doctors now believe that the boys have generalized epilepsy with febrile seizure plus (GEFS+). This is a very promising outlook, a far better one than they were suspecting back in November. It would be a diagnosis that the boys would outgrow (sometime between the ages of 6-12) and there are no long-term affects or learning disabilities. Diet would continue to be the most effective course of treatment and control for GEFS+.

Here’s a little more if you want more details: click kere

With that said, we are fully trusting the Lord for what He has for our children and our family.  Psalm 139 tells us clearly (without qualification) that each of us are fearfully and wonderfully made.  And Genesis 2 tells us that we are image-bearers of our God.  Without disregarding that after the Fall we have marred that image with sin, we believe Scripture promises that we still have the ability to bring God glory in a way that no other creation can.

My Heart

It has been a difficult few weeks for me. You may be wondering why. We have such great hope that this is not a life-long struggle our children will face, nor is it even something with lasting effects. To which I say-Praise be to God!

Still, I am struggling with the reality that our lives are not what I imagined they would be. Do you have those moments? We are at the doctor fairly often (check ups, blood tests, follow-ups, EEGs, MRIs…) And now, prenatal visits- that’s right!

An unexpected blessing! A little baby will be joining our family in September.  Again- not what I planned or expected.

But the Lord has graciously used the teaching at church the last few months to gently remind me He loves me more than to give me what I expect. He has sovereignly ordained a path for our family, a path that, if we bear in and draw near, will bring us into a sweeter and deeper fellowship with Him. A path that will cause us (sometimes painfully and tearfully) to grow into the likeness of our Lord. Who grows without pruning?

An illustration our pastor used goes something like this: When we suffer, when we are called to difficult things, we are being chosen. It’s as if God is our master trainer and we have stepped into His gym. It is going to be difficult and our [spiritual] muscles are going to be broken down and stretched. But our Lord knows how to strengthen us. He knows what we need. And the stretching and pain will cause us to grow.

There are days I don’t want to grow. I want to just relax and be fine the way I am. But in the Christian life we are either moving forward (closer to God, closer to Christ-likeness) or moving backward (away from God, into fleshly sin). Neutral is not an option. And the truth is my rest is not found on the couch, its found in the Lord (Psalm 62:5).

So on those days when I’m disappointed that we are heading to the doctor and not to the park, the Lord gently reminds me that He knows best. He loves me best. He loves them best. He has made my children exactly as He wants them and has given me the privilege of caring for them. Caring for them at the park and at school and at the doctor and in the hospital.

Friends

Lastly- I just need to say thank you again! I don’t say it enough. We are so blessed by the friends and family in our life. Thank you for praying for us and talking with us and caring for our boys! I have had so many people watch the boys for doctor appointments, bring us meals, check in on us, and generously support us, as we strive to feed them a special diet and have special tests done. So Thank You!

Weeping With Those Who Weep

I think a lot about the best ways to teach my boys about life—how to take biblical truth and explain it to them in practical ways. Sometimes it’s easy. Sometimes it seems cheesy. Often times I wonder if anything is sticking. But I keep trying—and I keep praying—because I want my boys to grow into faithful men, who live in this world in such a way that honors Christ.

Sometimes I choose the lesson . . . and sometimes life chooses the lesson for me.

This week, God has given me an unexpected chance to talk to the boys—our five-year-old Elijah in particularly—about injustice and weeping with those who weep. It’s been gut-wrenching, frustrating, and heart-breaking.

If you’ve been following the news, you’ve likely seen the story of Lexi. She’s a little girl in our church that was forcibly removed from her home on Monday because she’s 1/64th Native American. The fact that one of her 64 great-great-great-great-grandparents is Native American triggered a law (ICWA) that arbitrarily made it legal for her to be taken from the only home she’s ever known, from the children she knows as siblings, from the people she knows as mommy and daddy. The situation will still be fought out in the courts, and there is much left to be said and done. There’s much about the case that I, frankly, just don’t understand.

But this I know: Monday afternoon a 6-year-old little girl was taken from the arms of her daddy, despite her cries of protest.

So what do I say? How do I explain this to my little boy?

On Sunday afternoon, we spent a few hours standing in support of Lexi and her family. We prayed and sang hymns with many members of our church. We hugged Lexi’s father and offered our meager support. And we prayed some more. Monday, we did much of the same.

And they took her still.

Monday night, we returned to our friends’ home to pray with them (along with a couple hundred people from our church). On the way there, we had a very similar conversation with our boys to what we had the day before.

“Okay guys, we’re going back to our friends’ house to support them and love them.”

Elijah: “Why?”

“Because buddy, they’re going through a really hard time, and we want to be with them and show them we love them.”

Elijah: “Okay.”

When we got to their home, we prayed, sang hymns, and cried. At one point, Elijah, who was standing near me asked why everyone was sad. I could tell he was trying to understand why this time a trip to our friends’ house didn’t mean running around playing with the other kids. Why did this trip to our friends come with tears?

I knelt down next to my son and told him that something very bad had happened, and that we had come just to love our friends. He asked, “but why are we crying if we love them?”

“Well buddy, sometimes the best way you can love someone is to cry with them.”

His face turned down, his little eyes welled up with tears, and he asked to go stand with his mommy. And we cried.

Friends, if you have time today, visit fightforlexi.org and show your support.

Please also join us in praying for this family at the top of every hour.

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Sacrifice

We are thrilled to share with you that Calvin is medicine free, and so far no seizures! He is still having night terrors (not every night) and we are seeking possible causes for these, so we can help address them. Eric was sick (strep throat/flu for a week sick!) a couple weeks back and so I have been a little off on the diet  And honestly, in the past, this is the time in our life when we would give up on diets. However, we have a much stronger motivation this time! I am still struggling though.

The physical demands of cooking more are certainly a struggle, but I am discovering that what I am really having a difficult time with is the sacrifice. Boys eat.All. The. Time. And there are days with very little or no thank you’s (mind you, they are 5, 3 and 1, but somehow thank you doesn’t feel as wonderful when you have to ask them to say it first 😂.) There are days with complaining (from them, and me), days where no one likes the food I’ve made (I’m still learning and some meals flop), days when I am tired, days when I just don’t feel appreciated, days when I’m tired and uncertain . . . days when I take my eyes off Jesus.

When I am focused on Christ, then my sacrifices are not solely for my children or my husband, but they are for my Savior. The One who bought me and sought me when I deserved it not. How does this help when I’m cooking or washing dishes? It helps to remember God tells us we can do ALL things to His glory (1 Cor 10:31, Col 3:17).

“But we see Him who for a little while was made made lower than the angels, namely, Jesus, crowns with glory and honor because of the suffering of death, so that by the grace of God he might taste death for everyone.” Hebrews 2:9

What’s more? Christ sacrificed perfect unity and glory with the Holy Trinity, and the suffered humiliation and death so that I . . . me . . . the one who complains about dishes and feeding her kids . . . so that I could be united to the Father, no longer an enemy, but now a daughter.

I also consider Christ’s earthly example when He walked with the disciples. Think about it. God Himself, in the flesh, taught these men, lived with these men, performed miracles . . . and they still didn’t get it! They argued about who was greater! I would have given up on these guys, but thankfully, Christ doesn’t choose us because of who we are, rather because of who He is. And we get to see what amazing men of God the disciples became when the Holy Spirit came upon them. Only God can change men’s hearts and their desires.

Reflecting on this, focusing my gaze on Him, desiring to love and sacrifice for my family in this way can make daily tasks beautiful. It makes training those little hearts to thankfulness a reminder of all we have to be thankful for. It humbles my prideful heart.

Thank you for praying for our family! If you’d like to help with caring for the boys and supporting their treatment, you can give on PayPal, using the email: ewayne.taralynn@gmail.com

Reading Challenge: January Update

I’ve taken to 2016 Reading Challenge from Tim Challies.

Here’s my January update:

Books I’ve finished:

A Book about Christian Living: The Quest for Character, John MacArthur. Great book that will challenge you!

A Biography: The Unwavering Resolve of Jonathan Edwards, Steve Lawson. Edwards’ life and commitment to live for the glory of God is inspiring. Lawson does a great job of breaking down the theology of Edwards’ resolutions.

A Book for Children: Beep! Beep! Go to Sleep!, Todd Tarpley. It’s our boys’ favorite bed-time story. Easiest book to check of the list, and great fun to read (even a hundred times).

A Mystery or Detective Novel: The Sign of Four, Sir Arthur Conan Doyle. One of the great books in the Sherlock collection.

A Book about a Current Issue: Under Our Skin, Benjamin Watson. See the review I wrote for this book. Really enjoyed it!

A Book on the Current New York Times List of Bestsellers: Thomas Jefferson and the Tripoli Pirates, Kilmeade and Yaeger. Interesting subject matter.

A Book by a Female Author: Gut and Psychology Syndrome, Dr. Natasha Campbell-McBride. This book was part of the research we did on dietary treatment for the boys (and the treatment we’re currently using).

A Book about Food: The Coffee Roaster’s Companion, Scott Rao. Helpful book. Hopefully my coffee customers will notice an improvement!

A Book about Productivity: Do More Better, Tim Challies. Well-played by Challies including this as a category in the challenge! The book was very helpful.

A Photo Essay Book: Malawi, GCC. A look at a mission trip done by the youth of our church a few years back. One of the more enjoyable books to check off the list.

Books I’m Working On:

A Book More than 100 Years Old: The Federalist Papers, Hamilton, Madison, Jay

A Book Your Pastor Recommends: Honor, A History, Bowman

A Classic Novel: The Count of Monte Cristo, Dumas (SO LONG!!!!)

A Book about Theology: God’s Glory in Salvation through Judgment, Hamilton

A Book by C.S. Lewis: Prince Caspian (our night-time reading with the boys)

A Book by a Puritan: The Glory of Christ, Owen

A Book with at least 400 Pages: Frank: The Voice, Kaplan

 

Under Our Skin: A Review

I first became aware of Benjamin Watson, like many Americans, when his post-Ferguson Facebook post went viral. I’m usually leery of viral posts on social media, so I noticed it, but didn’t pay much attention. Then I saw Mr. Watson on a news show, and I was immediately thankful.

I was thankful, not because he was talking about race relations, but because he made a crystal clear presentation of the gospel. He wasn’t some celebrity making a generic reference to God or the “man upstairs.” He spoke frankly about sin, the death that sin brings, and the salvation available only in Christ. And he boldly said the gospel was the only solution to racial division. I praised the Lord for Watson’s words and immediately started looking for more information on him.

He’s a husband and father. I discovered he was a Georgia Bulldog. Being that the greatest earthly blessing in my life—my lovely wife—was once a Bulldog, I was willing to overlook my disdain for the SEC. I started keeping up with him on social Under our skinmedia, and was immediately intrigued when I saw that he had written a book, Under Our Skin.

I added the book to my Amazon wish-list, but being still in seminary classes at the time, it slipped off the radar for a time. Finally, I ordered it Tuesday night, and thanks to Prime shipping, I got it yesterday. As I’m prone to do when a new book comes in the mail, I opened the box and began reading the introduction. Usually, I use the introduction to decide how soon I want to read the book, and where it fits in with the other books I’m working on at the time.

Not this book. I was immediately captivated by Watson’s frank honesty and treatment of the subject. A few hours later, I had read the book in one sitting. I’d very much recommend Under Our Skin. Here are a few reasons:

It doesn’t “start the conversation.”

I’ll admit it. I tend to avoid books, news stories, and other media content on racial issues. Perhaps it’s a fault of mine—I’m still thinking that through. But, the reason I tend to avoid them is because I grow weary of hearing people say “we need to start a discussion,” and accuse people who disagree with them or see things differently as “not wanting to have an honest discussion.” I find these phrases are often examples of Proverbs 18:2, where people don’t want a real discussion, they only want to proclaim their views.

Watson’s book is different. It’s not a start-the-discussion book. It boldly furthers the discussion, and makes a great contribution to it. It’s frank, honest, introspective. Watson admits (even using the word “confess”) his own prejudices and sins. He admits he doesn’t have all the answers, but offers helpful ideas. And he challenges the reader to search his own heart and mind, look at himself first, and not oversimplify the issues.

It’s a challenging book.

I’ll admit it, there were times the book frustrated me. I found myself evaluating my own experience and comparing it with Watson’s description of people like me (I believe this was part of Watson’s desire for his readers). There were times I found myself countering the statistics Watson offered, and thinking things like “race isn’t the only factor in these equations!” But I kept reading, and Watson kept challenging me to think. The more I read, the more I became confident that Watson had challenged his own thinking on these issues. It was helpful, and it opened my eyes to a better understanding of other people’s experiences. For that, I am truly thankful!

It gets to the individual.

One of the greatest strengths of the book is that it challenges the reader to get past seeing people in blocks, based on race. In doing so, Watson challenges his reader not to oversimplify the discussion and to avoid getting caught in the common trap of just spouting off statistics that support “our side.” The book is largely biographical and gives snippets of the history of Watson’s dad and grandfathers. It’s a very helpful way of writing, because you find yourself not responding as much to broad statistics, but to Watson, his experience, Pop Pop’s experience, and Granddaddy’s experience. I found myself thinking about his 3a.m. drive to the hospital for the birth of his first child, and reflecting on our early-morning rush to the hospital for the birth of our Elijah. Watson’s writing really helps you see him as an individual, and, by extension, view race relations in terms of individuals.

He challenges his readers to get to know people as individuals and evaluate them as individuals. This is a common refrain in discussions of race, so much so that it often comes across as a meaningless platitude. Watson speaks from personal experience and demonstrates a clear desire to practice what he preaches. His humility in doing so adds a great credibility to the book.

It proclaims the gospel!

By far, the greatest strength of Under Our Skin is Watson’s clear presentation of the gospel. He emphatically and repeatedly points out that racism is not a skin problem, but a sin problem. He repeatedly drives his reader back to the truth. We are all created in God’s image. We should all value life as a gift from God. We have all failed and sinned against God. We are all in need of salvation. And salvation through Jesus Christ is the only hope for solving the world’s problems, including the problem of racism.

Benjamin Watson clearly proclaims the gospel. He nails it. He uses frank words like holiness, sin, and repentance. In fact, I’d say the book is a great example of how Christians should think through the problems of the world. We should strive to see the world as God sees the world, and respond not by pandering to people “like us.” We must lovingly and graciously point people to Christ. Watson does that masterfully.

I am very thankful for this book, and for Mr. Watson’s testimony. I found myself praying for him and his kids as I read the book. I found myself praying for our boys. And I look forward to the day that I can read through this book with them.

Thank you Mr. Watson for your work in Under Our Skin. And if you’d ever in the LA area, I’d love for our kids to play together. More importantly, I pray that one day our kids will be together with folks from every tribe, tongue, and nation, eternally worshiping the Lord together!

Great News!

Well, we’re about 3 weeks in to the new nutrition program to treat the boys. It’s been a learning experience for all of us, but the results have been incredible. All three of our boys are showing improvement in different ways, and we’re incredibly thankful.

Elijah

Our oldest son, Elijah—who’s never experienced a seizure—has done really well on the
diet. It can be hard work to get him enough food, because he’s a growing boy. Often he hasn’t even finished his breakfast before he’s asking what he can have for a snack or what’s for dinner. He’s really taken to the diet, particularly his morning eggs and the homemade kefir with a little honey.Elijah

As far as his behavior, we’ve noticed a great deal of improvement. He previously had a really repetitive tick that he’d sometimes have fits of lasting a few minutes at a time. Since beginning the diet, the tick has almost completely disappeared. His conversation skills have also noticeably improved. He’s become quite the little chatterbox, and he doesn’t have nearly as many of the typical 5-year-old “squirrel moments.”

Knox

KnoxKnox has also done remarkably well. Considering his diet before (pretty much milk from the bottle, bread, and crackers, with occasionally veggies crammed in), it’s amazing what this kid has learned to eat. Chicken, fish, ground beef, kefir, sauerkraut, cauliflower mash, carrots, green beans, avocado . . . you name it, and Knoxy Boy can put it away! We’re still fighting his fierce independence of wanting to do it all himself—usually resulting in that ginger hair being caked in meaty goo—but we’re so thankful for his improvement.

Calvin

Our sweet Calvin has had by far the roughest road. He’s had the most seizures, spent the most time in Children’s Hospital LA, and is currently taking daily medication. He’s also done really well on the diet, learning to eat a lot of new things. But he’s also had the slowest progress in terms of results. We’ve been praying for this, because it’s impossible to tell if his slow progress is due to him being the more extreme case or because he’s the one on daily meds.

calvinOn Monday, January 11th, we met with his neurologists, explained the particular diet treatment we had decided to go with, and requested that he be taken off the medicine. It was a difficult meeting, as the doctors were somewhat divided on whether or not to stop medicine. None of them had done the extensive research on the particular diet we were choosing. One doctor was encouraging, as the diet is very similar to others he has researched. Another doctor was very skeptical, making sure to tell me several times what the risks were. They agreed to consult with yet another doctor who specialized in nutrition. Though she had not researched the particular diet, and it is slightly different than the two programs more commonly prescribed for seizures, she agreed to give it a shot while she researched further, as long as we’d agree to heavy monitoring. She was very gracious, gave us more information on the other diet options and asked that we be willing to consider change if Calvin didn’t show high enough levels of a particular chemical—ketones to be specific. She definitely had her doubts, based on the differences in the more commonly used program and the one we’re trying.

Well . . .

Tonight, we got an email from the nutritionist. And Calvin’s ketone levels—after just two weeks on the diet—are fantastic! And he’s not lacking any needed nutrients (the other main concern for the doctors). His neurologist agreed to wean him off the medicine. We’re one week into that 5-week process, and there’s already been great improvement in his symptoms.diet

We are so thankful for this incredible news! We’re thankful for doctors that were willing to be honest with their concerns and advice, as well as listen to our ideas and the research we brought them. We are thankful for the amazing amount of material we were able to find, read, and sort through.

We also praise the Lord for the many of you who donated and gave to help us make the changes we needed to make. We have been overwhelmed by the graciousness of God. To Him be the glory and honor!

Thank you for praying for our family! If you’d like to help with caring for the boys and supporting their treatment, you can give on PayPal, using the email: ewayne.taralynn@gmail.com

Holiday Happenings

Christmas

We were extremely blessed by family who sent the boys many, many Christmas presents, along with their love. The Dodson men and I enjoyed a relaxing time with many trips to the park and a few final treats before we started . . .  THE DIET CHANGE. (Insert scream here.)

Elijah and I went on a little date. The doctor appointments have become our time with the boys, so it was so fun to just go have fun together. We went to IHOP and Toys R Us.

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The boys opening presents Christmas Morning.

 

After Christmas

As we mentioned in an earlier post, we are changing gears. Since Calvin has been on his current medication (to prevent the convulsive seizures) he has been having these screaming fits/seizures about an hour into his sleep, along with waking a few times in the night. Needless-to-say the combination of the lack of sleep and the medication, he has not quite been himself. So, after much research and MUCH GENEROSITY from you all, we delved into the unthinkable- We stopped eating sugar and bread. AHHHHH! (Among other changes- but these have by far been the most difficult for this momma😉

It has been a little over a week now- and you know what? I’m doing ok! We decided to make this change as a family and we are slowly beginning to see we are all benefiting. Praise be to God! A few of the changes we’ve seen:

  1. Calvin has slept through the night! He isn’t consistent yet, but after weeks of waking and crying, we are overjoyed and thankful that he (and we) got a full nights sleep!
  2. Knox is eating things he has never eaten before! This kid was literally surviving on milk and grains, but after 1-2 days of crying through meals and being motivated with bites of applesauce he is eating meat and vegetables!
  3. Eric and I got to start this together.❤ Eric’s office shuts down from Christmas to New Years, so he was in the kitchen with me every day! He has been such an encouragement and a support to me as we are drastically changing our day-to-day.
  4. Last but most importantly, I have been challenged to seek the Lord in a way I haven’t before. I don’t know about you but when I am tired, or the kids are loud, or something else has been peed on- I NEED Chocolate. I NEED Sugar. At least, that’s what I thought I needed. I used food as a comfort, instead of taking that opportunity to turn to the Lord in my weakness and seek His eternal comfort. Now, the Lord is giving me that opportunity. By stripping away the comforts of this life, I more quickly look to the Lord for the comfort He has been willing to provide all along. And it truly is a sweet fellowship!

Finally, I just want to, again, say thank you! These changes we’ve made, and will continue to make, have been possible because of your help. Seriously- we have been overwhelmed by your love, generosity and prayers for our family. So, THANK YOU!

 

Thank you for praying for our family! If you’d like to help with caring for the boys and supporting their treatment, you can give on PayPal, using the email: ewayne.taralynn@gmail.com

Dodsons to Disney!

Recently, we were blessed with a very generous gift that allowed us to take the whole family to Disney Land. We’re so thankful we were able to simply enjoy a day of family fun in “the happiest place on earth.” The boys loved it, and we loved seeing those smiles. Here’s a few pics!

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Thank you for praying for our family! If you’d like to help with caring for the boys and supporting their treatment, you can give on PayPal, using the email: ewayne.taralynn@gmail.com